right path, of adding a "secret" to his collection of memories, something he'll chuckle about to himself. He has "put one over" on society, his family and his friends... and this is satisfying. I dare say there must be many TV's who neatly fall into this group...the once or twice-a-year TV. Of course not all of them experience this same "indulging into some thing for- bidden" feeling with the same intensity.

In many TV's there is no particular sense of actual guilt, or if there is, it does not amount to anything strong, In this case, TVism is mainly a form of escape. It is to them--a form of daydreaming turned into action. Fantasy which goes beyond a purely mental game and is activated... the ghost become solid proto- plasm. The hero of the story cannot stand the pressures imposed on him by the author of the script...too many demands are made on his strength, creativity, ...too much responsibility on his shoulders.. he must always present a front of steel... and he is tired, so terribly tired of that role...something within his soul stirs in gentle and impatient undulations...please, just a lit- tle rest. .just a few hours of total oblivion.. a mom ent of real freedom, a moment to feel airy, disem- bodied, light, without responsibilities, without prob- lems. . a moment to stop...and become someone else.. ..be in every way the opposite of the role he has been protraying.

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Many TV's even if they never get to act out this liberation, often live it vividly in their day dreams.. ..the symbols of aggresive masculinity are torn down with a feline ferocity... the rough clothing of the fisherman, the drab colors of his office attire...the hirsute body of the athlete...the colorless lips framed by an aura of stubbly gray. the suffocating weight of thick soled shoes... the unbearable ugliness of the shirt and tie, (I wonder how many women would retain their sanity if they were condemned to wear for a lifetime, day in and day out, Summer and Winter, the very same white, highnecked, long sleeved blouse!)... The uni- form becomes a symbol to be momentarily destroyed.. .. and the TV sees himself as a GG. Doors are opened for her... admiring glances are aimed at her...she is colorful... stylish.... soft, graceful, airy...for an

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